Hello again!!!
This past week's word was AWAKENING!
"Let the sun illuminate parts of you that are dormant, numb or forgotten. Rub the sleep from your eyes and welcome the new dawn."
I think I expected something HUGE to happen this week. Something so big that it would have rocked my world and changed it forever! At first when I began writing this entry, I thought nothing happened at all this week. That there were no awakenings. However, looking back over the week I did see a couple of things. Awakenings did happen, but they were much more subtle then I expected.
I had a fun week with food. I bought ingredients that I have never purchased before and made some very yummy dinners. One thing I had never bought before was coconut milk. I bought a few cans and I got out all my spices and I put together an amazing coconut curry dinner with tons of veggies and tofu. I also put some coconut milk over frozen blueberries and it made a delicious sweet ice creamy dessert! I went to Costco and bought food that I had never allowed myself to buy because I didn't want to "waste" money on unnecessary spending. I bought goat cheese gouda and a container of goat cheese spread. Oh my Goddess! So yummy! Hummus was another item I bought. I am loving my snacks and lunches at work now with all this new food! I am eating tons more veggies and loving that as well. And it is not because I feel I "have" to eat them, it is because I want to!! I didn't know that switching and changing food could be so fun and add a little excitement to my life! It's a small thing, but with all my eating issues in the past, I feel a new sense of pleasure around food.
I went to a party this weekend. It was a huge celebration for the couple that were hosting. It was a wonderful evening full of food, friends and lots of love and laughter. I was sitting there in awe the whole evening. I have admired these 2 individuals since I had meet them a couple of years ago. I don't know them well, but what I know of them, I love. They are each incredible individuals with hearts of gold and they have such a warm and loving energy about them. Put them together and they make an incredible couple. And this incredible couple bought an incredible home. The house is a dream house of mine. A character house built in 1913. They also created a wonderful organization called Thrive Alive Foundation that subsidizes cancer treatments not covered by government or health care plans for people in need all across Canada. So I was sitting there, in this beautiful home, celebrating all that this couple had created so far and I all I could do was thank them for being them. I thanked them for being so inspirational and for being an example of all that was possible. It hit me that all of this was possible for me as well. Not just for them. But for me too. I looked at the two of them and I realized that an amazing relationship was possible for me too. I too could have a beautiful home and I too could create something that would make a difference in this world.
It was an awakening of possibility. An awakening of all my forgotten dreams, and they came rushing forward. It felt like a deep breath through my body. A sense of peace settled in my heart. And a smile fell upon my lips.
My eyes are opening and welcoming a new dawn of possibility.
What awakenings happened for you this past week?? Were they big and earth shaking?? Or were they small and subtle?? Tell me about them!
Ok!!!!!!!!! Time for this week's word!!!!!!!!!!! Are you ready????!!!
*****ENTHUSIASM!!!*****
"Be present with zestful alertness! Loosen your constraints and let your passion for life uplift others and generate new opportunities."
Wooooooooeeeeeee!! Are you ready for some enthusiasm??? What would your week and life look like if you took everything on with great enthusiasm?? I would love to hear about it!! Have fun!
Genki
Gen: Origin or Source
Ki: Air, Spirit and Energy
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Sunday, January 23, 2011
WOTW #3 - CLARITY
Hello again!
This weeks word was "Clarity". "Clear your perceptions free of confusion. Focus on intent and straightforward expression. See the world as it is without your projections, judgements and assumptions."
One thing that was very clear this week, was how unclear I was about clarity! I had no idea what the word really meant, and I didn't fully understand the statement provided by the accompanying book. I did try to become aware of my assumptions, and judgements throughout the week. But even they weren't crystal clear. I chose to ask some friends what their views and opinions were about the word to see if that would help me get clear. Out of those conversations came great insights. One of the first things I saw was that I don't have an intention for my life. Hmmmm....no intention. So, does that mean with no intention then there is no direction?? Do you have an intention for your life? I would love to hear what it is!!
I had a friend suggest that I get clear about what my current context for my life was. In other words, what conversations do I have running in my head about life, or my part of being here in this world?? She thought that if I became aware of what my hidden thoughts/beliefs were about life, then I could see that all of my projections, judgements and assumptions came from that. That all my actions might be driven by these unseen unempowered ideas. She asked me a very simple question - "What do you think you mean to life?" Wow! What a question! What do I think I mean to life?? How does life feel about me?? The first thoughts that came into my mind were that I mean nothing to life. That life doesn't care about me and I am taking up space. Life has forgotten about me. Not empowering in the slightest is it??!! So, if these are my beliefs about life, then all I see, hear, taste, touch, smell and think are affected by them. So interesting!!!!!!!! I love this!! Can you see that?? What is your belief about life?? What do you think you mean to life?? There is something so remarkable about being willing to look and dig and get dirty in your stuff!
I am still looking and digging knowing that there is probably more down there. More disempowering ideas and beliefs that are painting my view of life and who I am. I can see examples of how this has influenced me. One example is -a few times in my life, I was considering ending my life. I didn't see a point to life or my existence in it. Well!!! If my view was that life didn't care about me then why would I want to stick around! Why would I think that life would want me happy, or joyful or have abundance with beliefs like that!! I could only see through the glasses of "Life has forgotten about me because it doesn't care about me!!" I didn't even know I had those glasses on! Now that I aware that this monster has been running in the background smearing everything with its dirty fingers, I can see how ridiculous that is!!!!! I am taking off those dark and dirty glasses!!!!! I am choosing a cleaner pair!! (Big breath in)....my view is clearer!!! Why not choose to believe that life loves me being a part of it! That I add something unique to life? That life cares about me and it is full of love and joy and abundance! Now that is much more clear!! And as I look and clean out the old and dirty, my view is only going to get clearer!! That is CLARITY! And that is exciting!! A whole new view on a much brighter world and existence.
So now....the word for this coming week!! Are you ready??!!!!
(drum roll!!!) * AWAKENING*
"Let the sun illuminate parts of you that are dormant, numb or forgotten. Rub the sleep from your eyes and welcome the new dawn."
Get ready for a week of awakening!! What has been quiet in you?? What are you going to wake up to this week?? Have fun welcoming a new dawn!
This weeks word was "Clarity". "Clear your perceptions free of confusion. Focus on intent and straightforward expression. See the world as it is without your projections, judgements and assumptions."
One thing that was very clear this week, was how unclear I was about clarity! I had no idea what the word really meant, and I didn't fully understand the statement provided by the accompanying book. I did try to become aware of my assumptions, and judgements throughout the week. But even they weren't crystal clear. I chose to ask some friends what their views and opinions were about the word to see if that would help me get clear. Out of those conversations came great insights. One of the first things I saw was that I don't have an intention for my life. Hmmmm....no intention. So, does that mean with no intention then there is no direction?? Do you have an intention for your life? I would love to hear what it is!!
I had a friend suggest that I get clear about what my current context for my life was. In other words, what conversations do I have running in my head about life, or my part of being here in this world?? She thought that if I became aware of what my hidden thoughts/beliefs were about life, then I could see that all of my projections, judgements and assumptions came from that. That all my actions might be driven by these unseen unempowered ideas. She asked me a very simple question - "What do you think you mean to life?" Wow! What a question! What do I think I mean to life?? How does life feel about me?? The first thoughts that came into my mind were that I mean nothing to life. That life doesn't care about me and I am taking up space. Life has forgotten about me. Not empowering in the slightest is it??!! So, if these are my beliefs about life, then all I see, hear, taste, touch, smell and think are affected by them. So interesting!!!!!!!! I love this!! Can you see that?? What is your belief about life?? What do you think you mean to life?? There is something so remarkable about being willing to look and dig and get dirty in your stuff!
I am still looking and digging knowing that there is probably more down there. More disempowering ideas and beliefs that are painting my view of life and who I am. I can see examples of how this has influenced me. One example is -a few times in my life, I was considering ending my life. I didn't see a point to life or my existence in it. Well!!! If my view was that life didn't care about me then why would I want to stick around! Why would I think that life would want me happy, or joyful or have abundance with beliefs like that!! I could only see through the glasses of "Life has forgotten about me because it doesn't care about me!!" I didn't even know I had those glasses on! Now that I aware that this monster has been running in the background smearing everything with its dirty fingers, I can see how ridiculous that is!!!!! I am taking off those dark and dirty glasses!!!!! I am choosing a cleaner pair!! (Big breath in)....my view is clearer!!! Why not choose to believe that life loves me being a part of it! That I add something unique to life? That life cares about me and it is full of love and joy and abundance! Now that is much more clear!! And as I look and clean out the old and dirty, my view is only going to get clearer!! That is CLARITY! And that is exciting!! A whole new view on a much brighter world and existence.
So now....the word for this coming week!! Are you ready??!!!!
(drum roll!!!) * AWAKENING*
"Let the sun illuminate parts of you that are dormant, numb or forgotten. Rub the sleep from your eyes and welcome the new dawn."
Get ready for a week of awakening!! What has been quiet in you?? What are you going to wake up to this week?? Have fun welcoming a new dawn!
Sunday, January 16, 2011
WOTW #2- EXPECTANCY
Welcome back!!
Last week I pulled the card "Expectancy" and I have been thinking about the word all week.
When you hear the word "Expectancy" what comes to your mind? The dictionary definition of Expectancy is: - "n. the quality or state of expecting; expectation; anticipatory belief or desire.
When I read the explanation of the word in the book (that comes with the cards), ("Your attitude towards the present builds your experience for the future. Hold a positive outlook. Stay miracle-minded and open to surprises!!") I thought...MIRACLE-MINDED and open to SURPRISES?! Nowhere in that explanation of the word expectation were the words 'hurt' or 'disappointment' or 'manipulation'. How cool is that??!!
ALRIGHT!!
I have picked the NEXT word!! The one that I will be focusing on this week - The word is....
Last week I pulled the card "Expectancy" and I have been thinking about the word all week.
When you hear the word "Expectancy" what comes to your mind? The dictionary definition of Expectancy is: - "n. the quality or state of expecting; expectation; anticipatory belief or desire.
Expect- v. believe that a person or thing will come or a thing will happen.
Expectation -n. a belief that something will happen; a hope".
I saw I had always associated the word expectancy with "disappointment". I have many times in my life had expectations of things from people or situations and would, often, be let down. I also grew up hearing many times, "Don't expect much, then you won't be disappointed" or "Don't get your hopes up."---and I have continued telling myself that.
I also saw that I have manipulated people and situations to get my expectations met. I was trying to get my way (and I still do this at times!!). I had attached the meaning of love to expectancy when it came to expecting something from someone. I would expect them to behave in a certain way, or do a certain thing and if they didn't, then I thought they didn't love me! Of course, I would always be let down. Because of these beliefs, I have tried not to have any expectations about anything, then I won't get hurt, or disappointed. But that really sucks not to expect something!! How fun has that been for me..not very fun at all! I realized that I have never really let anyone show up in my life they way they wanted too because they didn't meet my expectaions. Sometimes I haven't been present and appreciating the moment because I felt it wasn't what I wanted or expected.
When I read the explanation of the word in the book (that comes with the cards), ("Your attitude towards the present builds your experience for the future. Hold a positive outlook. Stay miracle-minded and open to surprises!!") I thought...MIRACLE-MINDED and open to SURPRISES?! Nowhere in that explanation of the word expectation were the words 'hurt' or 'disappointment' or 'manipulation'. How cool is that??!!
I actually stopped and thought about it. This is a very different definition/idea about expectancy than I have had all my life. A whole new meaning to the word! I began to ask myself the following few questions (I invite you to ask yourself these questions too!).
Hmmm...my attitude now in the present creates my future. Do I believe that?? Is that statement true for me? Yes I do. Yes the statement is true for me.
Am I consciously aware of my attitude and think of it creating my future???? No, to both of these questions. Well, that isn't entirely true. I have been becoming more aware of my thoughts and attitude and have been able to change/shift them (stopping myself from going down the rabbit hole more times than not). However, I am not consciously thinking that my future is being created out of what I do/say/feel/think most of the time. I do believe that they create my future, I am just not consciously thinking about it.
Do I hold a positive attitude/outlook and am I miracle minded and open to surprises??? My answer to this one took me a little by surprise....my first response was "Of Course!!" But after much thought and digging deep, I realized that what was /is hidden underneath is not positive OR open to miracles. NOPE!!What I saw when I really took a look at this was that I expect the same old thing every day. I consciously don't think about expecting miracles or goodness or even anything different than what I already have or do. Why would I when all I think I would get would be disappointment?? Here are some examples of my "hidden" expectations...I expect that I will be running late getting to work. I expect that I will be tired after work. I expect that the kids at work will behave in a certain way. I expect that I will be short of cash at the end of the month. I expect that the guys I meet will be like all the other guys I have met and only want sex. I expect that no one will call me this evening. I expect I won't meet a nice guy and will be single for a long time. I expect I won't be going on vacation for a while because of being short on cash... those mundane and small expectations keep going and going. I know these mundane routines and expectancies and I think I don't get hurt or disappointed by them. But that is a lie! I am disappointed! I want more in my life! A fear of being disappointed has stopped me from creating and expecting more!
Am I consciously aware of my attitude and think of it creating my future???? No, to both of these questions. Well, that isn't entirely true. I have been becoming more aware of my thoughts and attitude and have been able to change/shift them (stopping myself from going down the rabbit hole more times than not). However, I am not consciously thinking that my future is being created out of what I do/say/feel/think most of the time. I do believe that they create my future, I am just not consciously thinking about it.
Do I hold a positive attitude/outlook and am I miracle minded and open to surprises??? My answer to this one took me a little by surprise....my first response was "Of Course!!" But after much thought and digging deep, I realized that what was /is hidden underneath is not positive OR open to miracles. NOPE!!What I saw when I really took a look at this was that I expect the same old thing every day. I consciously don't think about expecting miracles or goodness or even anything different than what I already have or do. Why would I when all I think I would get would be disappointment?? Here are some examples of my "hidden" expectations...I expect that I will be running late getting to work. I expect that I will be tired after work. I expect that the kids at work will behave in a certain way. I expect that I will be short of cash at the end of the month. I expect that the guys I meet will be like all the other guys I have met and only want sex. I expect that no one will call me this evening. I expect I won't meet a nice guy and will be single for a long time. I expect I won't be going on vacation for a while because of being short on cash... those mundane and small expectations keep going and going. I know these mundane routines and expectancies and I think I don't get hurt or disappointed by them. But that is a lie! I am disappointed! I want more in my life! A fear of being disappointed has stopped me from creating and expecting more!
Have you ever stopped to ask yourself what you expect?? What is your expectancy?? Has this ever crossed your mind before?? I have never thought about "expectancy" before in this way. It has been eye-opening for me. All of this was buried, unconsciously and now I can see it!
So, my attitude and expectation of "same old same old" was creating my future!! No wonder I felt like I have been living like Bill Murray in the movie "Ground Hog Day"! Expect the same thing every day, I will get the same thing every day!!
What will my attitude be?? How will my future look??
I am now consciously shifting my expectations to be grander! I am expecting miracles! I am choosing to shift my attitude! I am beginning to think outside my every day box. I think that all of this comes from awareness. Awareness of what is already there (a thought, idea, a feeling), and choosing something different if what is already there is not what you want to be creating your future to be.
One thing that I did not expect this week was this awareness of what I expect!! What a gift! I have a new level of excitement in my life about my life!! Yay!!!
So, my attitude and expectation of "same old same old" was creating my future!! No wonder I felt like I have been living like Bill Murray in the movie "Ground Hog Day"! Expect the same thing every day, I will get the same thing every day!!
What will my attitude be?? How will my future look??
I am now consciously shifting my expectations to be grander! I am expecting miracles! I am choosing to shift my attitude! I am beginning to think outside my every day box. I think that all of this comes from awareness. Awareness of what is already there (a thought, idea, a feeling), and choosing something different if what is already there is not what you want to be creating your future to be.
One thing that I did not expect this week was this awareness of what I expect!! What a gift! I have a new level of excitement in my life about my life!! Yay!!!
ALRIGHT!!
I have picked the NEXT word!! The one that I will be focusing on this week - The word is....
duh duh duh daaaaaaaaaaa!!!!! **CLARITY**
What is written in the accompanying book is:
Clarity: "Clear your perceptions free of confusion. Focus on intent and straightforward expression. See the world as it is without your projections, judgements and assumptions."
What would your week be like if you saw the world without your "projection/judgements/assumptions glasses" on?? Would there be a new view?? A new awareness?? Have a look with me, and let's see what we come up with!
What would your week be like if you saw the world without your "projection/judgements/assumptions glasses" on?? Would there be a new view?? A new awareness?? Have a look with me, and let's see what we come up with!
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Word of the Week (WOTW) #1 - LOVE
Last week I started something new. "Word of the Week". Once a week I will be picking a card (from 72 of them) from my "Angel Cards" and I will be putting my focus on the word that is printed on the card. I will then be blogging about my experiences that happened during the week.
Before choosing the card last Sunday, I set my intention on Self-Love for the week. I closed my eyes, put my hand through the cards and pulled out the card that "felt right". I looked at it and laughed...I choose the card "Love".
Love! Hmmm...what a perfect word.
I did a few things during the week that I thought were "self-loving". I decided to have a mantra running through the background of my week..."I love myself. I love my life." I said that as much as I could remember to say it. I passed by mirrors and I told myself that I loved myself. It felt a little odd to do it, a little silly. It made me smile sometimes and I also experienced feelings of great sadness. I just kept saying it. I kept smiling at myself in the mirror. Sometimes I kept repeating the word "Love" over and over. That helped me to stay focussed in the moment. To remind me to love whatever I was doing and everyone who was around me.
I asked myself questions like these whenever I was doing something (when I remembered!)..."Is this what loving yourself looks like? Does this feel good to me?? What would you like to do instead?? Are these loving thoughts, actions, words and behaviours to yourself or to others??" Sometimes I stopped what I was doing because it wasn't very loving and sometimes I didn't stop. But, I am happy that I am asking myself these questions. That an awareness has started. It is the first step.
I rediscovered the joy of reading books for pleasure. For a few years now I mostly read self help books. I thought that I should only read something that would "expand" me. However, I wanted nothing more then to curl up with a book and read just for the sheer pleasure of it. So that is what I did this week...a lot!
I am consulting with someone about my health. She is helping me with a nutrition plan and a cleansing program. I have been abusing my body with food for most of my life with my eating disorders. I have been anorexic, bulimic and I am still a compulsive eater. Forms of self-hatred. My body needs a full clean out. I see that loving myself is loving all of me. And the abuse I have done to my body is just a symptom of something deeper. My body is my instrument. It is dirty because of the food and thoughts I have been binging on for years. I know there is a correlation between food and emotions. I am looking forward to balancing and cleaning out my emotions along with my physical body. I went to "Body Worlds" at Science World (an exhibition of real bodies donated and preserved by a process call Plastination) yesterday and I have a whole new appreciation for this most miraculous machine I call my body. I saw a great quote that was part of the show......"Your body is the harp of your soul. And is it yours to bring forth sweet music from it or confused sounds." -Khalil Gibran
I am ready to make sweet music!
Two times a day I am doing a mediation/healing exercise.
I have been exercising every day.
I have been writing 5 successes for the day and 5 things I am grateful for before going to bed.
I am praying. I am not religious. I consider myself spiritual. I do believe there is a higher power, a GOD (Good Orderly Direction), an all knowing energy that watches over everything. I have been asking to see a different view, a new perspective, an expansion of my mind and heart, and healings. I am tired of thinking that I know best. I am tired of banging my head against the wall and feeling like I am not moving forward. Going in the same circles again and again and again. So, my intention is to let go. To Trust. To Surrender.
I have been doing a lot of crying.
I have been listening to Marianne Williamson book "A Return to Love" on CD in my car. It is a wonderful reminder of what life is all about.
I have been a recluse this week. I haven't wanted to be social. I have wanted to be alone. I have been coming home from work, putting on my pjs, having a nap, then getting up and cooking dinner, watching a wee bit of tv wrapped in a blanket with the fireplace on, and then curling up in bed with a book and then going to sleep at about 930. It is normal for me to want to cocoon myself at this time of year. I feel like a caterpillar in its chrysalis. I just want to be cozy. And alone.
The one day I was feeling a little social (last Monday), I went to Starbucks with a book and just read for a couple of hours. I had a lady ask if it was ok to sit with me. I said sure without really making eye contact. I read for a bit more, looking up once in a while to watch the people walk by and to look at the sun and the ocean that were just outside the windows. I looked at the lady sitting across me, and asked myself if it was very loving to sit here and "ignore" her?? I felt rude. So I starting talking with her. We talked for over 1.5 hours! Fascinating woman! She is 91 years old. Her name is Greta. I asked her what the secret is for a long and healthy life. She said it is keeping active and being social. She swims 4 times a week and comes to Starbucks everyday to mingle with new people and old friends. The stories she told from her past! The advice she gave from all her lessons in life! It was a remarkable conversation. I hadn't stopped to ask myself if I was being loving in that moment, I would have missed a wonderful connection with a beautiful, inspiring human being.
That has been my week...focussing on LOVE. A roller coaster of emotions and experiences. A willingness to accept all of me. To love all of me. An opening to see my greatness, my light, and my love...and love from and for others.
I have chosen to have the intention for the rest of this year on ME...on SELF-LOVE...on loving myself. I feel a bit selfish focussing on me, putting all my energy on myself. But I have come to the conclusion that if I do not love myself, then I cannot love others fully or feel other people's love. If I do not accept myself (all of me including my "faults"), then I cannot accept others fully. If I cannot see my light and shine it into the world, then I am blind to the light of others.
I have picked a card to focus on for this week...EXPECTANCY.
In the book it says - Your attitude towards the present builds your experience for the future. Hold a positive outlook. Stay miracle-minded and open to surprises!!
Oh boy!!! Sounds exciting!! What will your week look like if you stay miracle-minded and open to surprises??!! Have a fun expecting week!
Before choosing the card last Sunday, I set my intention on Self-Love for the week. I closed my eyes, put my hand through the cards and pulled out the card that "felt right". I looked at it and laughed...I choose the card "Love".
Love! Hmmm...what a perfect word.
I did a few things during the week that I thought were "self-loving". I decided to have a mantra running through the background of my week..."I love myself. I love my life." I said that as much as I could remember to say it. I passed by mirrors and I told myself that I loved myself. It felt a little odd to do it, a little silly. It made me smile sometimes and I also experienced feelings of great sadness. I just kept saying it. I kept smiling at myself in the mirror. Sometimes I kept repeating the word "Love" over and over. That helped me to stay focussed in the moment. To remind me to love whatever I was doing and everyone who was around me.
I asked myself questions like these whenever I was doing something (when I remembered!)..."Is this what loving yourself looks like? Does this feel good to me?? What would you like to do instead?? Are these loving thoughts, actions, words and behaviours to yourself or to others??" Sometimes I stopped what I was doing because it wasn't very loving and sometimes I didn't stop. But, I am happy that I am asking myself these questions. That an awareness has started. It is the first step.
I rediscovered the joy of reading books for pleasure. For a few years now I mostly read self help books. I thought that I should only read something that would "expand" me. However, I wanted nothing more then to curl up with a book and read just for the sheer pleasure of it. So that is what I did this week...a lot!
I am consulting with someone about my health. She is helping me with a nutrition plan and a cleansing program. I have been abusing my body with food for most of my life with my eating disorders. I have been anorexic, bulimic and I am still a compulsive eater. Forms of self-hatred. My body needs a full clean out. I see that loving myself is loving all of me. And the abuse I have done to my body is just a symptom of something deeper. My body is my instrument. It is dirty because of the food and thoughts I have been binging on for years. I know there is a correlation between food and emotions. I am looking forward to balancing and cleaning out my emotions along with my physical body. I went to "Body Worlds" at Science World (an exhibition of real bodies donated and preserved by a process call Plastination) yesterday and I have a whole new appreciation for this most miraculous machine I call my body. I saw a great quote that was part of the show......"Your body is the harp of your soul. And is it yours to bring forth sweet music from it or confused sounds." -Khalil Gibran
I am ready to make sweet music!
Two times a day I am doing a mediation/healing exercise.
I have been exercising every day.
I have been writing 5 successes for the day and 5 things I am grateful for before going to bed.
I am praying. I am not religious. I consider myself spiritual. I do believe there is a higher power, a GOD (Good Orderly Direction), an all knowing energy that watches over everything. I have been asking to see a different view, a new perspective, an expansion of my mind and heart, and healings. I am tired of thinking that I know best. I am tired of banging my head against the wall and feeling like I am not moving forward. Going in the same circles again and again and again. So, my intention is to let go. To Trust. To Surrender.
I have been doing a lot of crying.
I have been listening to Marianne Williamson book "A Return to Love" on CD in my car. It is a wonderful reminder of what life is all about.
I have been a recluse this week. I haven't wanted to be social. I have wanted to be alone. I have been coming home from work, putting on my pjs, having a nap, then getting up and cooking dinner, watching a wee bit of tv wrapped in a blanket with the fireplace on, and then curling up in bed with a book and then going to sleep at about 930. It is normal for me to want to cocoon myself at this time of year. I feel like a caterpillar in its chrysalis. I just want to be cozy. And alone.
The one day I was feeling a little social (last Monday), I went to Starbucks with a book and just read for a couple of hours. I had a lady ask if it was ok to sit with me. I said sure without really making eye contact. I read for a bit more, looking up once in a while to watch the people walk by and to look at the sun and the ocean that were just outside the windows. I looked at the lady sitting across me, and asked myself if it was very loving to sit here and "ignore" her?? I felt rude. So I starting talking with her. We talked for over 1.5 hours! Fascinating woman! She is 91 years old. Her name is Greta. I asked her what the secret is for a long and healthy life. She said it is keeping active and being social. She swims 4 times a week and comes to Starbucks everyday to mingle with new people and old friends. The stories she told from her past! The advice she gave from all her lessons in life! It was a remarkable conversation. I hadn't stopped to ask myself if I was being loving in that moment, I would have missed a wonderful connection with a beautiful, inspiring human being.
That has been my week...focussing on LOVE. A roller coaster of emotions and experiences. A willingness to accept all of me. To love all of me. An opening to see my greatness, my light, and my love...and love from and for others.
I have chosen to have the intention for the rest of this year on ME...on SELF-LOVE...on loving myself. I feel a bit selfish focussing on me, putting all my energy on myself. But I have come to the conclusion that if I do not love myself, then I cannot love others fully or feel other people's love. If I do not accept myself (all of me including my "faults"), then I cannot accept others fully. If I cannot see my light and shine it into the world, then I am blind to the light of others.
I have picked a card to focus on for this week...EXPECTANCY.
In the book it says - Your attitude towards the present builds your experience for the future. Hold a positive outlook. Stay miracle-minded and open to surprises!!
Oh boy!!! Sounds exciting!! What will your week look like if you stay miracle-minded and open to surprises??!! Have a fun expecting week!
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Something New - Word of the Week
Happy New Year!!!!
Sometime a few weeks ago, I got an idea for something to blog about...weekly...for this year. That idea really has me lit up. I am starting it today!!
Once a week I will sit quietly and think about the week ahead. I will either set an intention, think about what I wish to draw into my life, or what I wish to focus on and then I will be pulling a card (all cards will be upside down and I will intuitively pick one) from the deck "The Original Angel Cards". There are 72 cards and each has a "playful illustrated keyword to help you focus on a particular aspect of your inner life. The more you think about the quality reflected by the word and picture on the card, the more you will find this quality echoing in your life."
I will focus on my intention and word for the week. At the end of the week, I will share my experiences, ideas, thoughts with you.
For this week I am choosing to focus on Self-Love...really loving who I am, discovering what makes me feel good, what I like and being very gentle and compassionate with myself.
The card I drew was LOVE.
Here is what the accompanying book says about the card:
LOVE. The essence of contentment and the foundation of serenity. Love is the activation of your spirit reaching out and making connections. It overcomes grief, harbours no ill will, and heals all separation.
Ok. LOVE!! I am inviting you to do the same. What would your week be like if you choose to focus on LOVE???
Sometime a few weeks ago, I got an idea for something to blog about...weekly...for this year. That idea really has me lit up. I am starting it today!!
Once a week I will sit quietly and think about the week ahead. I will either set an intention, think about what I wish to draw into my life, or what I wish to focus on and then I will be pulling a card (all cards will be upside down and I will intuitively pick one) from the deck "The Original Angel Cards". There are 72 cards and each has a "playful illustrated keyword to help you focus on a particular aspect of your inner life. The more you think about the quality reflected by the word and picture on the card, the more you will find this quality echoing in your life."
I will focus on my intention and word for the week. At the end of the week, I will share my experiences, ideas, thoughts with you.
For this week I am choosing to focus on Self-Love...really loving who I am, discovering what makes me feel good, what I like and being very gentle and compassionate with myself.
The card I drew was LOVE.
Here is what the accompanying book says about the card:
LOVE. The essence of contentment and the foundation of serenity. Love is the activation of your spirit reaching out and making connections. It overcomes grief, harbours no ill will, and heals all separation.
Ok. LOVE!! I am inviting you to do the same. What would your week be like if you choose to focus on LOVE???
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